People tell me that I always seem so confident wherever I go. But deep inside, I think I’m the most awkward and self-conscious person ever.
I hide all my flaws with my insane laughter and flamboyant attitude, it distracts people from the hideous person inside and don’t really show who I really am. People just judge me by my laughter, thinking I’m just another loud obnoxious irritating dumb bimbo(boobs and no brains).
Growing up, I’ve had my share of comments on how I’m
- not the smartest
- not the fastest
- not the strongest
- not the prettiest
- not the tallest
- not feminine
- always the fattest.
I’ve learnt to take all these snide remarks and just pretend like they don’t affect me at all. I join in with the laughter and joke about it together with them. Hoping that one day, they’ll just stop bringing me down. Somehow, it still comes up, someone will talk about something horrible and link it to me. And again, I’m the centre of all their jokes.
When does this ever stop? Will it ever stop?
Is it because of my loud attitude that people are so envious of my confidence that they’re trying to bring me down with their words, or it’s something they just think it’s funny? Are they trying to show that they are the superior species?
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will always hurt me deep inside.
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